algebraic consequences

26 09 2011





what’s old is new

18 08 2011

My brief ibook experience reminded me that many people still use older computers with small-ish screens and would, most likely, appreciate not having their browser window taken up by large width blogs …of which I was one.  And so I switched back to the tried and true freshy theme …so if things look familiar …well, they are.  The compy is back too btw.  I called to see if it was ready (it’s been almost 2 weeks) and when I was told it was still on the back counter waiting to get shipped out (which would be yet another 2 weeks!) I decided to grab it and live with the slight discoloration these iMacs seem notorious for.  Maybe sometime this Winter when I don’t have a lot to do, and after I plan to have all my music crap I need made available on something else …I’ll bring it in.  Again.  Maybe.

In celebration of old new things, here’s a strange occurrence …a new poem.  What the heck I said to myself, it’s something more than nothing and nothing is getting kinda boring around here, on many fronts.  So this is good.  And that’s it for now I think.  Ooo, I picked up a metronome today …to help me along with my trombone studies that I’ve been somewhat working on.  You may find this strange, but I don’t think I ever played my horn to a metronome.  Maybe a click track in conjunction with a band or some other instruments, but never alone with a little click, click, click thing.  It’s kinda neat.  Although, I do like the looseness of phrasing that you get without having to follow a strict tempo, but I suppose it is something different to focus on which tends to make the exercises a little more exciting.  Lol, exercises exciting?  Did I just say that?  Shame.  Bad, bad words.

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perfect words

perfect words never come perfectly -
stopping and starting they try to be
more than the words that appear to me;
finally coming – imperfectly.





whew…

11 03 2011

Image from IMDb

Adjustment Bureau is a waste of time kids.  It boils down to breaking free of your pre-determined path only to be given another one.  What joy.  I suppose I should of wasted my $8.50 on some big screen special effects via Battle: Los Angeles …but I knew that ending before it began so I spared myself the grief.  I am looking forward to the Marvel/DC flood that seems almost upon us though, at least for some big screen, rattle your bones action that is.  Perhaps I’ll save my buttons till then.

My knee has been sucking for the longest while lately too, which sucks because I can’t ‘move’ like I’d like to, and it seems that on the days when it’s not too bad it only alternates with my sucky neck.  I wonder if I whiplashed myself or something.  Can that happen?  I’ll google that later.  Maybe it’s time for some sort of sensual massage or something.

Speaking of limited flexibility, this video got me a little concerned about my lack of mobility.  I know it’s me …and I know I should put the effort into working on that aspect of my health.  I’ll blame my culture ;)  Us Canadians are made for the cold it seems …stereotypically of course.  But if I had some warm weather for longer than the few months it’s around then maybe I’d stretch out of that ‘under the covers fetal’ position that I’ve become so accustomed to.  No excuses though, and I suppose I could turn the heat up in the house.

Image from Wiki.

I did watch something called Amal a few days ago.  It’s a Canadian film set in New Delhi and is one of those feel good movies that reaffirms the idea of people being good for the sake of being good.  Rent it if you get the chance.  I was inspired half-way through to write a little ditty (that I hate now but I’ll post anyway…) so if that’s any indication then there you go.  I also, after digging around on a high-school buddies facebook page not so long ago, came across the fact that a girl I went to school with called Padma Viswanathan, is a successful novelist.  Neat!  Anyway, I picked up one of her latest offerings called ‘The Toss of a Lemon‘ and have just started into the first 60 of some 600 or so pages.  I’ll give your the verdict when I’m through (which knowing me may be a while) but so far so good.  The sad thing though is that I hardly remember her, and I have the feeling we were in both High School and Junior High together.  Lol, such is my much forgotten youth.  Maybe that’s why my achy bones are coming back to haunt me.

Image from Wired.com

And what about that Karma!  (smooth, I know)  But consider this article by Jonah Lehrer describing a study that shows how women (and men I’m sure too) cast themselves into roles based on expectations and not abilities.  We seem to have had interest of late regarding International Woman’s Day and how they, women that is, are still behind the gender 8-ball when it comes to business and pay equality.  And so I wonder, why couldn’t you make the case for affirmative action based on the phycological need for inspiration?  There may be some science behind it.

Image from Conscious Entities

And while talking about things I know nothing about maybe this post might interest you.  It’s one of those blogs that when new posts come up in my news reader, I kinda shy away from until I can get a few minutes …or rather hours, to take a good look at.  Lol, and even then…  Anyway, it’s about how we quantify experience, or at least try to, and aside from giving you answers and a great history lesson on the progression of different thinkers, it also leaves you with as many questions.  It seems I’m still drawn to Peter Lynds idea on consciousness being tied into a way of perceiving.  The way he tosses away ‘instants’  just somehow makes me want to throw out ‘numbers’ and ‘words’ as well.

I mean, can you really prove the number one as being ‘one’ thing?  Ditto for the word ‘one’ for that matter; what exactly does it mean?  Or are they simply things we just notice …much like that voice or those thoughts and experiences floating through our brains all the time.

Stupid brains.

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When you strip it all away -
when the image falls and the
pride recedes to shame,
you find the truth.
The tears.  You find yourself,
and in that reflection, hope.
You find a song so simple.
A color true.  You find the world
as it once was.  And as the
tree whose greatest majesty
lies buried from sight,
so too is the strength that
springs you forth again.





swept into life…

24 12 2010





old days

19 11 2010

A few excerpts from Chapter 10 of Gorky’s My Childhood (translated by Ronald Wilks)…

“When I’d taken up my position I watched the grown-ups trying hard to show they weren’t bored and the strange and suspicious way the watchmaker’s face changed expression.  It was oily, and seemed to run and flow like liquid.  If he smiled, his thick lips moved towards his right cheek, and his small nose also travelled about, like a boiled meat dumpling on a plate.  His large protruding ears moved very strangely.  At times they rose with the eyebrow of his sound eye, and then dropped down towards his cheekbones: I thought that, if he’d wanted to, he could use them like hands and cover up his nose.  Sometimes he would sigh, stick out his black tongue, round as a pestle, nimbly describe a perfect circle with it, and lick his thick greasy lips.”

“Long afterwards I understood that to Russians, through the poverty and squalor of their lives, suffering comes as a diversion, is turned into a game and they play at it like children and rarely feel ashamed of their misfortune.  In the monotony of everyday existence grief comes as a holiday, and a fire is an entertainment.  A scratch embellishes an empty face.”

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The following poem was inspired by something in Chapter 11.

the old days were young days;
weighted with memories half-
formed and wrought of emotions
pieced hurriedly together.
they were measured by
untrained eyes and with
hands smooth, naked of time.
they were of fears unwarranted.
they were of naive intentions,
few regrets and steeped in
simplifications that have long
since been reformed.
they were shells of what we are
yet, eerily, what we are.

and still we find the need to reminisce.
of days themselves …or is it truth we miss?





pencils

23 10 2010





Fall is fall…

1 10 2010

Yep, I think it’s safe to say Fall has fallen.  Around here at least.  There’s a few hanging on of course, probably in denial, but most have given up on the battle to stay gold.  Heck, Ponyboy couldn’t do it…  In celebration of the event though, here’s a poem I wrote (that’s in the Poetry -OLD section) back in what must of been late eighty something.  I remember the idea coming on a walk from the Kinsmen parking-lot up to University, and if I was parking there then I was still at home, and if I was still at home it had to be sometime between 85-87′ …it’s all a blur.  And thankfully so!  Here’s a few Fall shots as well.  Some are alright …some lack any real motivation.  I blame it on the lack of motivation ;)

Fall is fall and fly, flip and then flail
and hellish runs of chaos
warmly met by a curbs edge
holding, held and heaped and harnessed heav’ly
by that swiftest arc then smashed
carelessly and lost till that
son of sun then secretly summons spring.

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